I ask that b/c sometimes I feel like that. I do a lot and I give a lot. I rarely ever say no and when I say no it's only b/c I absolutely can't rearrange a schedule or change something around to make it a yes. If you want help, you got it. Even if it means getting up when it's dark to get something done before the sun is out. You want a great place for a haircut? I'll tell you where. Want me to bake something for your party? I'll do it. Want me to cook something? Sure. You need help w/invitations or party favors b/c the vendor screwed you? No problem, I'll do it even if it less than 2 weeks away. You want some feedback about all the cars I have and do I recommend them? Sure, and I'll try & convince you to buy a car like mine too. Need a dentist? I have one. Need more friends or companionship? Meet my friends, they're awesome. Whatever it is my friends need, I'm there for them. Even when I don't know what to do, I'll figure it out and or go on the internet if I have to. I'll do whatever it takes to help in anyway I can.
My mom said sometimes the best kept secrets are the ones you keep to yourself. If you give it away, you lose some of the benefits that come with it. For example, my ob/gyn doctor. I have referred soo many people to see her for ob/gyn services. She's just a great & easy going yet caring doctor. I think the world of her for the awesome care that she gives. I have been seeing her for over 10 years now. Over the years, I can tell her number of patients have grown tremendously. My friend has been seeing her for the last few years too. She absolutely adores her too. Her husband likes her just as much. They have gotten great care and talks endlessly about our OB, Dr. Lynch. When they see her, I hear all about her visit and she gets the best care from her. She delivered both of her babies. Our OB has gone out of her way to make sure delivered her children too.
Me? She didn't deliver any of my children. When Bryce was due, Dr. Lynch was having her baby too. When Kurt came, she was off that week so Dr. Nelson (her associate) was on duty instead. Dr. Nelson delivered both Bryce & Kurt. Then there's the office visits. I wait an hour to see her. I have waited over 2 1/2 hours to see her at times too. When my friend talk about her visits, it's not anything like my visits at all. I don't know why either. I don't know if I'm taking it personally or the wrong way. Maybe my friend exaggerates? Sometimes I feel like she's throwing it in my face. Honestly? I don't know what to make of it. Like I said, I think my OB is taking on more patients than she can see in a day. (Hence the long wait) I think I'm envious/jealous of my friend who has been fortunate to not have to wait as long and that Dr Lynch delivered both her children.
I know I have many other things to be grateful for and that I have made a difference by giving others suggestions, advice & help. If I didn't give my friend the referral, she could've ended up w/a horrible doctor or a horrible delivery. Who knows, right? But still, I feel cheated and even though I feel this way, it won't stop me to continue to give & help others. It doesn't make me want to help my friend any less either. It's just that sometimes things like gets to me and I don't understand.
Is my mom right? I don't know. But I do know that sometimes...I feel cheated
1 comment:
It sounds as if you just want to be validated for the good things you do. It's obvious that you do a lot and you do the best you can for people.
I believe we have 'tests' every day in our lives and yours have included long waits at the doctor's office and not having her available to deliver your children. There's nothing personal in those things-- just circumstances were different.
Anyway, I think that when we learn the lesson, we pass the test. It's figuring out what the lesson is and what its for! Continue to help and suggest and be a good friend. Everybody's life is made better and isn't that what life is really about? Serving and giving? I think so.
I have a book called "If Life is a Game, These are the Rules" and one of the rules is: "Lessons are repeated until learned."
Thank you for helping others. :)
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